Medical Dramallamas

Since this isn't a livejournal account I don't know how to put things behind a cut so you'll just have to sit and endure me giving you an insight into my current medical dilemmas. Also, I'm feeling slightly concerned as to anyone who may read this as they walk behind me as I'm currently int he science library; cue constant;y checking over my shoulder every ten words.

Soooo I went to the doctor this morning to get the results from my blood tests and it turns out that I'm apparently quite anaemic - so much so that my red blood cell count has dropped or they've gotten smaller or something. And now I have to take something called Ferrograd C tablets which are these bright red pills the size of New Zealand, and we all know the problems I have taking pills in the first place. So I also grabbed some of the liquid version (called Ferro-liquid, or as I will forever be calling it 'Ferral Liquid' BECAUSE I KNOW IT'LL TASTE LIKE SHIT) and see what happens from then. My doctor said I could take injections instead, for which I was all gung ho about because I love injections and hate tablets, but then after she wrote me the second prescription she said they'd be administered as an injection.. in my butt.. so I think I'm going to man up and start learning how to take tablets.

Also, I have PCOS, of some degree. Look it up, because I don't really feel like going into too much detail about that.

Sometimes I Get Like This...

Walked into my old work today and felt like crap. Not because I miss working there, but because I wish that they'd miss me more. That's so narcissistic. But I guess I just sort of resent the fact that when I quit I didn't even get a real proper good-bye, no card, nothing. Even though I'd been there for 4.5 years and I guess I thought that counted for something. I don't know, I guess this looming literature review is just making avoid everything to do with it and focus on how shit my life is.

So cue the my-life-sucks rant. And go.

I do hate the fact that I've never really had a serious boyfriend. It makes me feel so immature. I don't mind waiting to find someone who actually means a lot to me, but I feel like whenever I'm in a conversation with people talking about sex or boyfriends or whatever, not only do I not fit in because I don't have anything to say, but I feel really silly about the whole conversation. Like a 14-yr-old in sex ed or something.

Secondly, I wish I was really smart. Or really good at something. I wish I had a thing that sort of defines who I am. Something that makes me recognizable besides being 'the twin'. But I'm not really very good at anything. I don't even want to do psychology anymore.

This was a poorly-worded post.

I Wish I Was A Business Student

Because:

1. Their café is nice and quiet, despite the decent amount of people in here
2. There are a nice amount of quite attractive business school boys/lads/MEN
3. I wouldn't have to do my stupid literature review.

In all fairness, I probably should have started it a lot earlier. But, in classic Caitlyn style, I've left it to the last minute again. Due tomorrow night at 11.30pm, and I haven't even looked at any articles. Might have to consider an all-nighter and be completely dead at work tomorrow, but I'm tired as hell already.

Sat through a really uninteresting med student lecture (sorry, girls) and all I really want right now is a reese's peanut butter cup and to go home and take a nap. I'll be off to the shops later to get some red bull, probably.

Love Thy Neighbour, Even If They Think You're Crazy

I met my next door neighbour yesterday. He seems nice. European, came to the door smoking a cigarette (which was a little confronting), asking about the fence between our houses which still needs to be fixed. I don't have a problem with this man at all.

But I have a problem with now having an face associated with the house next door. Because it's quite easy to hear our neighbours, one either side of our house (as illustrated by the young kid next door that wakes up at 6.30am yelling 'Doggy!!!!!'. Every. Single. Morning.). And now that I have this association, I suddenly feel really self-conscious about talking to my dog, knowing the face of the neighbour next door that can hear me..

Also, I have twitter now... so follow, holla' *shame*

@cahoki_

That Awkward Moment When...

...you're off to start your half of a speech that you need to finish tomorrow to show your teammate and you can't even remember what side you're supposed to be talking about. Goody. So in true Caitlyn-Procrastination style, I'm here to update my blog. Right now, my life be like;

+ watching copious amounts of I Will Survive. I honestly can't begin to describe my love/obsession for drag queens. I swear, if they don't get RuPaul on this show when they get to the US, I will blow a gasket. (Side note; Davin just got out! That's upsetting since he was such an attractive boy/girl in drag..)

+ dropping to part-time study because I went to do my assignment and I had no idea what I was doing. I feel a little bit of a failure of a uni student for not even being able to handle three units, but I feel like studying part-time will be the best way for me to (hopefully) get high enough grades to get into honours whenever I eventually finish my degree.

+ becoming overweight, but aside from the horrendous amount of m&ms I had tonight, have been completely on track in my diet/exercise. I aim to be a size ten before I head out to Sydney in 2.5 weeks,  which if I keep doing well, is completely achievable.

+ not eating chocolate at work anymore! And no more sneaking tons of nougat/peanut brittle in the kitchen when I'm working in the café because I know there's not cameras in there. To be fair, it's only been one shift where I didn't eat chocolate, but still! Baby steps.

+ being not completely impressed with the final 12 in X-Factor. I thoroughly believe that Bella blew it too many times to be in the top 12, and that the guy from Albert isn't versatile enough over Carmelo to win. And don't get me started about how questionable it is that Samantha Jade knows Guy, is in his category and - surprise, surprise - is now in the top three. Maybe I'm just a skeptic.

The things I'm thankful for today/this post;

+ Kristin Chenoweth - Holy crap she is all kinds of flawless. When I get this speech done I'm going back and watching all of GCB.

+ the fact that I cleaned my room today so now I have a decent area on my bed to sleep/write my speech on.

+ that my partner for my speech was ok with changing our meeting time to later in the afternoon tomorrow.

I should attempt this speech now. Let's all hope I'm writing about the side I'm supposed to.